Everyone Needs Something To Look Forward To

So after last week I’m in a better mood. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I can’t do everything at once. It’s really just about sitting down and doing the math with how long you want to spend studying/practicing things day-to-day. I did that once upon a time, but I realize now that I need to make more room for relaxation. I need to have something to look forward to day-to-day.

All work and no play just puts you in a bad place.

Wandering Aimlessly Through Life

Well, sometimes life gives you lemons, and you can only make lemonade out of them. You can’t make Gatorade, Red Bull, or Slimfast out of that stuff. We can only do so much in with what we have.

What I’m trying to get at here is I’m cutting down on things. I can’t keep wandering around feeling aimless. I’m trying to do too much with too little time. I used to have a second blog. A “secret” blog that was really not very secret because there were at least three (I think) people who knew about it. I tried to write a book. I also did book reviews. Lo and behold, there are only 24 hours in the day and I have killed myself for so long I don’t even want to think about this. I cannot keep writing a book while keeping a day job. It’s too much for the faint of heart. I have learned my lessons on this.

I’m also cutting down on other things, like programming and so forth. It’s time I managed my time better. I need to sleep and eat too.

It just makes me kind of sad that I can’t do all the things I want to do. I feel like I missed out on so much in life. Maybe in the future I’ll have more time. I’m just mad that I can’t do it right now.

Getting Up At 4:30 Day 3

So today I woke up a little earlier than 4:30. This is probably the last day I’m doing this, at least for this week. That is unless I can get to bed earlier but who am I kidding? Most people nowadays are lucky to get to bed as early as I’ve been this week. We’ll see what I do tomorrow. If I’ve learned anything from this it’s that it feels good to have this kind of motivation. I can do pretty much whatever I want now for a couple of hours. I’ll probably have breakfast and look at my schedule.

Then I’ll probably go back to bed. Like I said yesterday, tomorrow I plan on at least getting up with the sun but not necessarily 4:30. We’ll see.

Getting Up At 4:30 Day 2

I’m about to go to sleep again. Literally. I think I will. It feels like I’m about to pass out Though oddly enough my back feels a lot better this morning. I suspect it’s all those core exercises I’m doing.

Today is also the first day of my new pill regimen. The regimen goes on for six days and is supposed to decrease inflammation, gradually decreasing the number of pills taken daily. If my back continues to get better with the core exercises and if these pills work I’m really hoping I won’t have any more back pain by the end of this week. And if I do it’s already been lessened somewhat. Truthfully, I’m not just thinking about pain I want my body to heal and fix the problem so I can do weightlifting again. I’m not one of those people who just want’s to “fix the symptoms”. I want to fix the problem.

Btw this is too early. I’m not sure I’ll keep to 4:30, though I’m going to try for at least one more day.